Fantastic Reality (pt 3)
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Posted:Jan 4, 2018 10:15 am
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Fen must have felt my body jerk because his hand was at my back pulling me in to him, I could feel his hard cock pressing in to my hip, wanting to feel more I turn just enough so I can press in to him. Fen's other hand grasps my hip, sliding down pulling on my thigh. Bringing my hands up around his neck, kissing along his jawline, I allow my leg to slide up his, curling my leg around his. The feel of his cock sliding across my pussy with the turn and now my leg up allows me to really feel the fullness of him. Behind me Roca presses in to my back, her hand pushing its way between Fens hard chest and my full aching breasts. Finding my nipple she pinches it lightly, sending a wave of pure heated lust straight to my center.
Closing my eyes to enjoy the sensations running through me. I allow my body to be moved slowly. The pull on my nipple, excites me more then I knew could be. I had played with my nipples before, but this.. this was different. I feel Roca's body move away from mine, and Fen moved a bit indicating I follow his lead. Pulling my leg back down and Fen reaches down, picks me up and holds me close to his chest. I look around and see he is moving me toward the bed. Gently laying me down he reaches for my hand closest to him, grasping my wrist he pulls my arm above my head to one of the waiting handcuffs.
I see Roca standing down by my feet, kneeling down on the bed and grasping my foot, she applies the cuffs to first my left then right ankles. Fen slowly stands after cuffing my other wrist and walks to the wall. Pulling down a few different things he heads back towards me. My nerves are on end, I have no clue what they are going to do, but the excitement building in the pit of my stomach is like no other. Roca starts nibbling on my legs moving her way up my body, slowly, reaching my knees she pushes my legs apart. As she kisses my inner thighs, I hear a smack, feeling Roca's body jump a little I look down at her. "MMM Daddy again please?" I hear her say, and Fen smacks her on the ass again. "You are being a naughty little girl Roca, I did not say you could nibble or kiss yet. Did I?" Moving back down to the edge of the bed, her head lowered as she replies "No Daddy, I am sorry."
Placing items on the bed I see a long feather, a bottle of lotion, some clothes pins, and a body wand. As he walks around the room again I stare at his back, the muscles bunching and relaxing as he reaches for more items. Bringing more to the bed there is now a dildo, a candle and a mean looking whip.
"What is the whip for?" I ask quietly. Roca looks up at me and giggles. "That is a flogger, you will like it. It is one of my favorites." Glancing at Fen she quickly looks back down "Sorry Daddy." Fen walks over to her, with his hand he grasps her chin making her look up at him. "I will let it slide... this time. You are trying to help." Leaning in he kisses her and steps back. "Have you ever done anything like this before Tennie?" He asks. Reaching down he plucks the feather off the bed. Looking back at Roca, using the feather he runs it down her arm past her hip to her feet. As she sits there, a slight shiver running over her body.
Turning toward me, starting at my feet he uses the feather to trace a path up my leg. "Roca, I want you to lick the path of the feather." Fen states. She turns around on the bed kneeling again, lowering her mouth to my foot. The feel of the light touch of the feather and the warm wetness of her tongue is so contrasting, I cant help but whimper a little, "Please... uh.. " I never did enjoy being tickled but oh my lord. Further up he reaches the apex of my body, I can hardly feel the feather through the panties but as it slips over the cloth then touches my legs and stomach I feel my muscles bunch. "Oh" I close my eyes.
Placing the feather back on the bed Fen reaches in his pocket, pulling out a knife, grasping the panties at my hip he quickly slices through the thin material on both sides. Leaving my throbbing pussy open to their view. Following suit with the nighty I am now completely naked upon the bed, still strapped. My nipples harden even more if that was possible the ache for touch intense. Roca still between my legs looks up at Fen, "Daddy may I?" she asks. Grabbing her curls in his fist and kissing her he replies, "Yes baby girl. You may." Looking from one to the other, following Roca's movements she lays down between my legs, her hands spreading my pussy lips open. I feel her tongue quickly dart across my clit. "Oh.. fuck!" I breath in quickly. Fen watching her as she laps at my pussy like a with ice cream, not wanting to miss a single drop. I cant move other then to buck my hips, but that just makes her push in a little harder. I feel a finger slide up and down and then in my pussy.
Moving to the head of the bed Fen removes his pants. His cock bouncing out begging to be touched. Kneeling on the side of my head, grasping my hair he prods me with his cock. The feeling of Roca sliding her finger in and out of my pussy is distracting, but his cock begs me for attention. Lifting my head I swipe my tongue across what I can reach. As he leans in I take his cock in my mouth, giving it all I can tied the way I am. Roca moves up and grabs the dildo, moving back down she slowly slides it in my now very wet pussy.
Moaning as it enters I hear Fen gasp, I guess my moan on his cock felt good. Standing back up he picks up the flogger, moving over to the side of the bed he starts running it over Roca's ass and legs, and my legs. I can feel her wiggling, she knows what's coming and smiles up at me. I feel her body jump first, then hear the smack, then feel my legs tingle. It sounded worse then it felt. Repeating this Roca starts pushing the dildo in me with each smack. Pulling it back out and moving it just at the opening. Smack, twitch, thrust. "Oh fuck yes" I moan.
Pulling at the binds, needing and wanting to participate to taste Roca and Fen both. "Please?" I beg. Fen looks down at me, "What do you want? Tell me what you need." Gasping as the dildo slides in and out at a faster pace. "Fu..ck.. Fuuuck.. Please!?" Panting I can hardly get the words out. Fen reaches down and pinches my nipple closest to him, "I need the words.. come on you can say it.. what do you want?" My hips are grinding in to Roca's fingers as she quickly strokes my swollen clit.
Removing the dildo and leaning down her mouth is on my pussy sucking on my clit, I cant breath, I cant do more then grind my hips up. I need to cum so bad but I cant think straight. "Please... Please.. Oh God Please!!"
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Fantastic Reality (pt 2)
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Posted:Jan 3, 2018 7:48 am
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2018 5:55 am
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While sat there we talked about little things in life, heated glances passed from each of us, then the food arrived, turning my head to look at Fen, I asked "Who ordered this?" Fen replied "I ordered a little of everything, its so much all together it will be plenty to feed all of us." Looking at the food I see some very appetizing plates of Italian food. Picking out what looked best to me, as did Roca and Fen we started eating and continue our conversation. After a glass of wine Roca looked at me, her face becoming soft, a small smile on her full lips. "Tell me Tennie, are you into women?" she asks. Pulling my eyes from her lips to look her in the eyes, "I have never been with another woman. But I do fantasize about it." Scooting her chair closer, she reaches out her hand for mine. Slidding her fingers up mine, past my wrist and back down again. The shiver started in my toes, ran up my legs to the top of my head, and back down to leave a singe on the tip of my fingers.
Slowly taking a deep hitching breath, I swallow my nerviousness and turn my hand up to catch hers.. Pulling it lightly, I graze my lips across her palm. My tongue darting out to swipe her wrist, my other hand reaching up to her face. Licking my lips as I gaze in to her eyes. I whisper my desire down the side of her face with my fingertips, running my thumb over her full bottom lip, as I grab her chin and pull her in close I whisper right next to her lips, "With you I have been fantasizing all day, from the first moment my eyes glanced you playing in the water." And I kissed her lower lip, tilting my head to the left, I nibble the corner of her upper lip, followed by another light kiss. Looking over at Fen, I reach for his hand, pulling him in closer. Placing his hand on my thigh, and pressing his hand higher under my dress. "I think its time to go back to the suite." I quickly kiss him.
Standing I swallow the last of my wine, and turn to the door. I can hear them moving behind me, I feel this power flow through me, undescribable yet of firm control. Outside Fen orders the car around and we all get in, on the drive back we were all petting each other lightly, stoking the fire. At the hotel we get in the elevator and go up, at the door I grab Roca, pressing her in to the wall outside the door I kiss her deeply, her hands weaving there way through my hair. Fen opens the door "Ladies, shalle we?" Stepping back I walk past him in to the suite. Sitting in the chair that I was in earlier, I watch them come through the door. Fen lightly slapping Roca's ass. Looking back at him she smiles at him, complete trust in her eyes.
"Why dont you take Tennie in the bedroom and show her where she can get comfortable, I will grab some wine." Said Fen. Walking over to me she reaches for my hand. Pulling me up I look back at Fen, he is undoing his tie, and top two buttons of his pressed shirt. Walking with Roca to the bedroom, over to a closet bigger then my bathroom back home. Inside, there is a wall of sexy lingerie, thigh high boots, high heels, nylons. On the other wall is handcuffs, whips, floggers, toys of all shades, but what really grabbed my attention was the rope. Stepping back looking at Roca I whisper "Wow", licking my lips, "He was not kidding when he said you were in the lifestyle" swallowing hard, taking a deep breath, I step through the door. At the end there are 3 full size mirrors, I see Roca standing behind me looking me over, her eyes are down cast looking at my feet, I can feel the heat on my skin as her eyes make their way up. Walking over to the clothes, she reaches out for a black nighty with matching stockings, garter, and panties.
Looking over the shoes, she pulls out a pair of 4 inch stilettos, also black. Turning back to the clothes, she starts rifling through as if deciding what else to pull out. Finally settling on an emerald green nearly identical outfit to the black she had handed me, she turns back to the bedroom. "Come on lets freshen up." Heading toward the bathroom she tossed the outfit on the bed, reaching up she starts pulling pins from her hair. With each lock that falls my eyes follow the bounce. Following her lead, in the bathroom, her hair is laying against her back, swinging her hair to the side she looks over her shoulder at me, "Grab the zipper please?" As I reach up I allow my fingers to graze her earlobe, moving down her neck, further down her spine to the dress the zipper nearly at her ass. Grabbing the zipper, I slowly lower it, leaning in I plant a kiss on her spine. Stepping back I reach up pushing my hair aside, untying the strap at my neck, then reaching for the zipper at my side I watch as she steps out of the dress she is wearing. She is not wearing a bra or panties, and as she reaches down to pick the dress up I can see her pussy peeking out at me. Wiggling out of my dress, I place it neatly on the counter. She steps in to the shower, turning on the water I can see the steam, the picture in front of me is of dreams I have yet to have. Pulling the head of the shower out of its bracket she runs the water over her body. Rubbing her breasts, stomach, and pussy over a few times, reaching back with the water she looks at me and asks "Will you get my back for me?"
Stepping out of my panties I place them on top of my dress, walk over to the shower and step in behind her. As I start running my hands down her back I hear a deep moan. Looking back at the door Fen is standing there shirt off, pants unbuttoned, holding the wine and glasses. I reach down to Roca's ass letting my fingers slide between her supple cheeks, down to graze her pussy from behind. Leaning in to me she turns, kisses me lightly and starts caressing my body, taking the same path she did on herself. Grabbing my hip she turns me away from her and pushes me toward the wall. Running her hands down my back as I did her and plants a kiss on my spine. Between the hot of the water, the feel of her hands and that kiss my body convulsed of its own accord.
Standing there trying to gain control over my wayward body, I hear the water stop and now she is drying me with a towel. As we step out of the shower I glance at the door again, Fen is no where to be seen. We walk back in to the bedroom and proceed to put on the outfits she picked out earlier. The emerald green against her silky tanned skin looked amazing, she knew exactly what she was doing when she picked it out for herself. The black one against mine did the same. Grabbing my hand she pulls me back to the closet. Where before there were mirrors on the end wall now stood an open door. Looking at her with a confused look on my face, she pulls me in to what appears to be another bedroom. Only this one had more toys on the walls. A huge circular bed in the middle with cuffs, soft music was playing, it has a nice deep beat to it and I feel my hips move to the rhythm.
Fen is standing in one corner, drinking a glass of wine. He turns to us smiling, "The beauty I seen in the shower was something to behold. I nearly joined you." Roca giggled and looked at him coyly "You should have!" she stated. Fen stepped toward me and grabbed my neck pulling me to him. "You!... You are more delectable then I could have imagined." Kissing me so deep my knees nearly buckled.
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Fantastic Reality (pt 1)
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Posted:Jan 2, 2018 1:15 pm
Last Updated:Mar 7, 2019 6:37 pm
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Sitting here book on the table next to me, shades pulled lower so I can see over them, staring out at the ocean. I should be writing my new book, but for the life of me my fingers don't want to work with my mind. How can I write a spy novel when all I can think about is touching myself. Closing my eyes my mind starts drifting off again, and I feel my hands move of their own accord, creeping toward my thighs from the armrest. Opening my eyes I see this couple playing in the waves. The woman's body is magnificent, perfectly round natural breasts, covered yet caressing her upper abdomen, my eyes wander down, to her slightly rounded belly and full hips, as she turns her ass jumps out and slaps me mentally, wow, her shapely legs just beg to encircle a body.. I breath in deep wishing I could smell her, looking over at the man he is older, has grey peeking at his temples, he is very handsome. His chest gleaming from the water, his pecs are soft but pronounced, he works out but it is not a main focus for him, his stomach is not a washboard but can still walk the hills and valleys of his abs, lower still his trunks hide what his ass looks like but his legs are that of sex God.
Once again my fingers itch to move over my body, this time allowing them free reign I reach for the sun block to look innocent. As I apply the lotion to my arms slowly my imagination starts running away with me again, in my mind that couple is putting the lotion on my body, her soft but firm hands sliding up my arms and over my ample chest, her hand slightly grazing my nipples, leaning back in the chair I just enjoy the feeling of this. Then I feel strong hands start rubbing my upper legs, slow tantalizing circles from the outside toward the middle, I feel my pussy pulsate from anticipation. The hands are moving everywhere and I am starting to get really wet from want and need. Moving my hand over my stomach, I push my finger down the front of my bathing suit bottom, just one finger so I might not get caught, rubbing my clit I watch the couple some more.
Now they are kissing, very passionately, she has those legs wrapped around his waist, feet locked behind him. Her breasts are mashed up against his chest his one arm behind her back the other holding her head, hand wrapped in her hair. Her hands are moving all over his shoulders and head, running her fingers through his hair, playing with his ears. I hear a giggle from her as he tickles her side. I can just see this all happening in a king size bed, him sitting there on the bed everything else the same, minus the clothing. The contrast of their sweaty bodies to the crumpled white sheets kind of distracting. They are locked together in sweaty sensual sex, moaning with each little movement made. His hand pulls her head back so he can nibble on her neck, pulling a little harder to make her breasts jut out to his waiting mouth. A gasp escapes deep from inside her
Realizing to late that gasp was from me not her, I open my eyes to see if I have been caught, the couple are looking my way with grins on their faces, oh how embarrassing, they did see me. She leans in to him as he says something to low I can not hear, and she looks back my way. Untangling her legs from his torso, he lowers her down and she turns my way. Walking from the edge of the water she approaches me her smile getting bigger the closer she gets. Sitting on the chair next to me, casually she says "Hello". Looking down, face red, I reply, "Good morning, um, sorry if I offended you." Smiling even bigger she shakes her head her red/blond hair falling in front of her face, "you did not offend me, as a matter of fact, I was telling my husband that you are quiet beautiful, and he agrees." Shocked I look up at her and over at him, he is still smiling and now walking over toward us. A purpose in his stride. As he sits down next to her, he reaches his hand over and says "Hi, I'm Fen. This is my wife, Roca." Grasping his large hand in my not so small one I say "Nice to meet you both, I am Tennie, nick name really, anyway yeah um nice to meet you." Looking away now feeling stupid for babbling, and back asking, "So how is your day going?" Fen looks from me to his wife and replies "Getting better by the moment" laughing slightly. "Look I am going to be straight with you, my wife and I are in the lifestyle, and I have been wanting to play with another woman, would you be willing to join us?"
Glancing from her to him with a shocked look on my face, my mind jumps back to my fantasy of them in bed, only now I am there with them. I have never been in a situation like this before and don't have any idea how to respond. Looking back over the ocean mulling this over in my head, I know I am not going to get my book wrote and this could be a once in a lifetime opportunity, but I don't even know these people. Looking back at Roca I ask "Are you sure?" What where did that come from? Why would I ask that? What am I thinking.... ? Kissing Fen on the cheek she says, "Yes, anything Daddy wants Daddy gets. But I want you for us, and he spoils me sometimes."
Fen stands up holding out his hand for Roca and says "We are here at the hotel, suite 369, join us for dinner tonight at 8pm sharp. We will see where the night leads." As they walk away I look at my book, and back at them. Making a quick decision I grab my stuff and throw it in my tote. "Live while I can enjoy it" I mutter under my breath.
Back in my room, I look at what I brought to wear while here writing, nothing screams sexy to me so I decide to go shopping in the little boutique around the corner. Easily finding what I find sexy yet modest I return to my room and start prepping for the night. By 7:30, looking in the mirror I start getting little flutters in my stomach. "Now or never Tennie, now or never." Leaving my room I head to the elevator, once on pressing the 3rd floor button, I am committed. As the doors slide open I step out and take a deep breath. Head held high I head to room 369, as I approach I glance at my watch, 5 till 8. Standing there for a full minute I finally knock on the door. Fen smiles as he see's that I am standing there and welcomes me inside. "Roca is nearly ready, we are running a few minutes late, do you mind waiting?" Shaking my head and smiling I follow as he leads me to a sitting room. "Would you like something to drink while we wait?" Sitting in a lush over stuffed chair I nod, "Do you have white wine?" Fen wonders over to the bar and grabs two glasses, a bottle of wine and a corkscrew, walking back to me, handing me a glass he places the other on the table. As he opens the bottle with a small pop "My kind of lady, knows what she likes." And pours us both a glass.
Roca walks in the room, she is wearing thigh high leather boots, a black mini dress that could be painted on and her hair is pilled on her head in intricate curls. My heart stops and starts again, she is breath taking. Fen gets up and wraps his hands around her waist, kissing her gently on the cheek. "You look fantastic baby, take my breath away." Smiling she looks at me and says "Love your dress, you got that at the boutique around the corner right? I knew I should have grabbed it." She laughed. Grabbing her purse she glances back at us, "Shall we?"
Once we get down stairs Fen grabs both of us by the waist and walks toward the front door, "I made reservations at my favorite restaurant here, the food is amazing, and the atmosphere is very relaxing. I hope you like Italian food." Turning and speaking to the doorman asking for a car to be pulled around. As a town car pulls in he steps forward and opens the door for us, "Beauty before Brawn." he smiles and we all get in the car.
Pulling up to this quaint restaurant, we get out and walk inside. The hostess smiles and says "Good evening ladies, sir. Allow me to show you to your table." Thinking to myself they must eat here a lot to get that kind of service. Following we are sat in the back at a secluded table set for 3. Glancing at Fen, he smiles and holds a chair for both of us before settling down between us. There is a bottle of red wine chilling in a bucket and delectable smelling rolls still steaming sitting on the table. "How did you find this place?" I asked. Roca responds, "I own it. This is my restaurant, Fen asked what I wanted to do with my free time and this was always a dream, like I said, he spoils me."
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Music
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Posted:Dec 22, 2017 10:04 am
Last Updated:Dec 31, 2017 6:47 pm
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Today I am sitting here listening to Lindsey Stirling album Shatter me, and I see this erotic film ing out in my head.
Previously stated album ing in the back ground.
Woman, sitting in the middle of a room of mirrors. Long brunette hair flowing down around her head bent slightly as she looks at the mirror directly in front of her. In the mirror she sees a man, with the beat of the music stalking around her, but he is not there when she looks around.
Mirror Man, moving gracefully, body flowing, Long sandy blond hair flowing behind him. Moves to the mirror in front of the woman, pushing slightly on the mirror and walking in to her reality.
In her reality he is wearing loose fitting thin pants, he holds a box that says Musical Mirrors. Placing the box before the woman, opening the box inside holds a mass of ropes.
The woman looks to the box, back to the face of the man, bows her head gently, and awaits his movements. He walks around the woman, bends and retrieves a rope black in color. Holding it up to her chest checking the color to see if it fits the mood. Tossing it aside reaches in and pulls out a crimson rope. A smile flits across his face. Placing the rope amongst her skin he starts tying her up. She flows through his hands place as he wants her, standing still till he has her tied the way he wants her, nibbling the tender skin just inside her arm, kissing her neck, daring her to move. Still she stands her ground awaiting him, finishing tying her as he wants her, he moves his hands over her body, learning every curve, every dip and rise.
She breaths in his ent and enjoys every movement of his strong hands. Knowing he knows her inside and out and will take care of her..
I think put with better thinkers this could be a very beautiful music video hehe.
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Solo Exploration and Intimate Finalization
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Posted:Oct 4, 2017 2:58 am
Last Updated:Aug 10, 2020 11:09 pm
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Sliding my hands from head to toe
Feeling everything as I go
My hair, eyes, nose and chin
Further down my exploration begins
My neck, shoulders, and chest
It begins to feels like a quest
My belly smooth I feel my silky skin
Trembling starts from deep within
Over my hips and down my thighs
Gulping air releasing sighs
Knees and calves further down
Till I reach my feet planted on the ground
Back up my body as I roam
I feel myself start to moan
The sensations I feel as I glide
My fingers from side to side
Around my legs and up around
That's when I hear that throaty sound
I turn and see you standing there
Holding your breath needing air
This solo exploration of mine
For you is like a very fine wine
Solo no more as you reach for me
I close my eyes so I can not see
The need I created by sight alone
You grab ahold and I moan
Sliding my hair to the side
So my neck it does not hide
You kiss and nibble down my spine
Tingles, shivers how divine
Caress my ass and grab my hips
Turning me to claim my lips
Holding me tight you lift me in to your arms
I am taken over by all your charms
Your amazing eyes look deep in mine
A smile so sweet, tender and fine
You claim my lips and kiss me deep
It feels so good I want to weep
You lay me down on the bed
And place my hands above my head
You tie my wrists up with lace
I am finally in my happy place
All night long as you ravage me
Making me happy and setting me free
To sleep I drift a smile on my face
I dream of happy times and space.
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My Passion
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Posted:Sep 28, 2017 4:11 am
Last Updated:Jan 3, 2020 9:12 am
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Roaming fingers touching my body
Lips testing my limits of sensual touch
Tingles and shivers from anticipation
Oh how I want this so much
The first slap across my ass
Exquisite sensations explode in my mind
Sounds riveting through my soul
Needing you to not be kind
Tying me down so I can not move
Covering my eyes so I can not see
Gagging me so I can not talk
Please Master oh please let it be
Tension rising from the whispered promise
Of a time that will be forever ours
As you make me yours and I obey
You take me up to the stars
Time passes and I moan
Begging you for release
Loving me hard and owning me true
All I can do is beg you please.
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Online Shopping.
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Posted:Aug 23, 2017 7:35 am
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2018 8:26 am
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So I was looking around for some new toys via online. And though I have heard of a lot of this stuff and seen pictures I found some items that really made me twitch. Cant wait till I get some extra cash for me and can buy the following items. The collar just made me spasm at looking at it.
What are your thoughts on these items. Have you tried them? Do you like them?
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Singular Switch?
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Posted:Jul 18, 2017 11:02 pm
Last Updated:Aug 13, 2017 12:21 pm
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Deep inside a fire burns.. one begging to be managed to be doused and then reignited in to the inferno that is my soul, to ravage and sear that which is inside me.
The flames licking and dancing around the people in my life that bring me pleasure, that bring me enticing pain. My fire begs to be controlled only to be let out when allowed, it demands to be obeyed and feared. For so long I have been yearning for this lifestyle only to be denied for one reason or another. Yet it still smolders below the surface of my skin. I need to be owned while owning another. Being pulled in so many directions at the same time has made me a passive and unrelenting confusion, turmoil that needs to be settled yet stirred.
Exploring myself and my needs and wants. Slowly opening more thoughts, more needs, and only now after so long of simple thoughts do I have an idea of who I am and what it is I need. The questions that remain a mystery to me is when I will find who will fill the voids in my life, and when or if it will ever happen.
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Talking Trash
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Posted:Dec 31, 2016 2:36 am
Last Updated:Aug 8, 2017 11:35 am
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As a member on here I have talked about my weight gain/loss to many of the "friends" I have made on this site. But of all the years I have been here... until just 5 minutes ago did I never and I mean NEVER feel as small as I do now. I found many years ago that I had health issues that made my weight gain increase faster and those issues I have been struggling with to over come.
I have spent many hours with Drs. and taking meds to correct what could be corrected before I could loose weight, during this time I have felt like giving up because I was not seeing results fast enough to make it seem worth the time. Only to find that now my health is decreasing in other aspects.
But to log on to the one place that I have been for the most part treated with respect and made to feel understood and get an email from some small minded ass hole that probably cant get laid if he paid for it to say to me.. -what a cow, stock yard is next to you - and then turn off the profile so I or anyone else cant reply to said email is pathetic. No I am not the most beautiful woman in the world, nor am I the tallest, smallest, thinnest, largest either.
I am me. And if you don't like that then so what. you don't have to like it. No one ever said you had to like anything you see, or hear. But as a human being what you should do is go on with your life and stop trying to make everyone else miserable because you are. Maybe put a smile on your face and give someone you would not normally give a brighter day to work with. And then just maybe life will lighten up for you too. So Mr. email person if you ever see this and you know who you are.. have a great fucking day.. and may your day be brighter!
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recent developments
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Posted:Mar 12, 2016 8:48 pm
Last Updated:Dec 31, 2016 2:37 am
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So after time I am loosing weight, (very slowly mind you) but it is happening. And I have noticed a slight (but not very significant) increase in my sex drive. That is a good thing.. With in time I should be back to the old me and to be very honest I can NOT wait to be skinnier and more sexual, even though my body has not wanted to participate my mind has missed it very much.
Must keep going!
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new frame of mind
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Posted:Nov 14, 2015 2:12 pm
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2018 8:26 am
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For years I have been on this site, and tried hooking up with people no matter if it was for sex or just friendships. Then I started feeling really down about myself so I decided that I was not going to look for anything but conversations.
I have talked about many things here in my blog, and usually I don't have too many comments but I have plenty of views.
So I think now I will just post for me, and today I will post about me loosing weight. After years of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. Many visits to Doctors and blood tests it has boiled down to the fact that I have thyroid issues. Now from the time I was first diagnosed I kept putting weight on and was falling more and more in to a deep depression. Then I was diagnosed with spine issues that at this point can not be corrected and it makes moving around EXTREEMLY hard to move about. After years of pills and changing the dose, more blood work and more dose changes finally the Doctor tells me my blood work came back where it should be.
Three (ish) months later with very little trying on my part because of the depression. I have started loosing weight, down 11 pounds and counting. So from start to finish my basic goal is to loose (and yes I know this is a lot) 250 pounds at the least.
I have cut soda out of my diet, I have stopped eating bread things for the most part, and I am trying to walk more, even though it is not easy (and not just because of the weight) but I am determined.
Do you have any other ideas as to what would help me get to my desired goal of 150-180 pounds?
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swallowing alot
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Posted:Oct 8, 2013 10:41 pm
Last Updated:Sep 14, 2015 7:53 pm
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so finally after healing all the way, i gave the "chewing on this" a go. and if i do say so myself, (which i don't.. ha ha) it turned out really good.. i love that i can nearly bite down with out worry of causing hurt, but at the same time... if need be there is always my nails!.
at this point i don't know why i did not do this sooner!
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